ITS ALREADY CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas is one of my favorite holidays not because of gifts but just the spirit of Christmas! Its so fun to be with family and watch all the kids play and eat good food and treats and relax. It can get really crazy and busy but its so fun to just be with the ones you love!! Tonight was Christmas eve and we had Present time at Aarons Dads and step moms (where we live) so the entire fam comes over we eat honey baked ham and tons of food and sweets and we open all the presents! I like it this way so tomorrow Ava can open hers from santa and us and my parents this way each year we know christmas eve is with the Panters and Christmas is for My SIDE!! I love it and it was so much fun ava got blocks and a play cell phone and she is already like me she watches me very careful so she has wanted a cell phone for a while now. SO nanna and pappa decided to get her one she loves it and puts it up to her ear and talks baby talk SHE IS SO BIG! She got a rocking Horse from Tim and Krissy its so cute and jammies and a out fit and socks lots of fun stocking stuffers and We got food storage stuff this year for emergancy which is so cool and a huge thing of hot chocolate mix YUMMY and a package of like 5 different kinds of HOT SAUCES which Aaron loves and Aaron got a huge pic that was nicely framed with him and his dad its really nice. But tomorrow is a new day and I hope Ava has fun like she had tonight! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

CONGRATS MIKE AND AMANDA

Ok so this little love story hasnt even started yet! Well it has but they kinda havent but they are PERFECT for eachother. Mike and I have always been really close maybe because were pretty close in age and our best friends when we were younger were brother and sister and maybe because we hung out plenty as teens and young adults. But see we were always the little black sheeps of the family. Mike is no longer that way and it amazes me he has come so far with all that life has handed him he has never stopt reaching for his dreams. I have always known since forever all Mike wanted was to be financially successful and to find a PERFECT wife so he could marry her and raise the cutest family! Well he has so FOUND that PERFET WIFE!!! And they are getting married on Saturday! I am so glad to have a new sister in law those of you that know me I am the only girl so we have Rachel who is married to my older bro Taylor who i love and now we have AMANDA! Mike and Amanda met on line so really their relationship was phone and on line for a few months while we were down in Kansas City working Security Systems so really I have only met her a few times. But thats all I need to know that she is perfect for him. Plus I just read their blog that they have and its the cutest thing they have letters back and forth that they have written to one another that they posted and Please can I tell you they are both head over heals and are in this for the right reasons. Mike prob never gets on this but incase he does. I am proud of you Mike for always striving to be better and always coming out on top. You are someone I love and look up to. Though were all grown up and dont see too much of eachother you are still close to me in my HEART. I am so glad you have chosen Amanda to be your partner for ever. You guys diserve eachother and will make the cutest family when the time is ready!!! I am so excited for their weddings I love weddings I think they are so fun because its all about love and uniting as one!! Its a busy week with showers, christmas and weddings but it will be a great time!! I am so happy for both of them and I am happy to keep our family growing now that Rachel has Jaid and a little boy on the way, and I have Ava they need more cousins! NO RUSH... but i cant wait! Love you both and CONGRATS

STORY TIME

Ok... So marriage has been hard not in the I dont want to be married way but in the way that life trials has made it hard. Being newley married and being first time parents at the same time brings tons of stress though I would not change a thing I wish I would have been smarter as a young adult and teen and not been so stupidly stupid hah! Ava is my ROCK the reason I wake up obviously and the reason I say time for bed. Its all about our decisions in life that will make or break relationships and plain and simple your life! I know that Aaron and I had to grow up fast. Just because we were headed a direction by our actions never meant we were ready to take on the maturity and responsibilities to get married and raise a baby. Trust me we werent ready we were so oblivious to it all! We thought how hard could it be we love eachother so much and some day want to get married so lets do it all backwords! OH MY GOSH I could kill me now because love, parenting and marriage is not something you just think you can do you have to know it deep in your heart. You have to be smart you cant live like a high schooler and mooch off your parents but say its all gravy! I wish I had a smarter brain one that would have said let me go to collage and not worry so much about spending every minute consumed with Aaron and my friends and hanging out! But as I think about where I am and what and who I have become I can say with no regret that I have become such a better person because of my hard ships in life. I may have been stupid and gotten pregnant at 20 and not been married. I may have rushed into things too quickly I may have done my share of drugs and drinking but I can say I am happy I learned this way. Yes it would have been awesome to do things the right way to feel that FIRE when you want to marry the person you love. I just felt fat and stressed and worried. I never got to have my dream wedding though my wedding was perfect for that time in my life I wish I had more to remember. I look at my brothers and all I can say is they are such a insperation. Thats the way both Aaron and I wish we had it. Aaron is my LIFE. He is my Best friend and sometimes we do get into fits and fights but at the end of the day the mean words and un kind things we do we know that it wasn't real or worth holding onto. He is the best at giving me hope for our future the one that picks my negativity to positivity! He knows life is hard but he really has such an awesome view on things. I am so negative and he isnt so its a wonderful quality for my HUSBAND to have so he can pull me out of the slums! He makes me Laugh and Cry he makes me dream.... He is my everything and someone I only want to make things better and better with and so nothing can ever come in between us. HE is the best father! dirty bums, bath times, feedings and more he is totally up for it! I for one could sit back and let him do it all thats the worst quality I have see but thats also the beautiful thing about this is that it has made me so much more active and willing to be the "MOTHER" figure!!! I havent quite gotten to be the best house WIFE as in cooking and cleaning but thats only because we live with his parents but when we have our own place I do a great job. All I mean by this little post is to say I am happy my life is no fairy tale it actually can be the oposite but its a life that makes me strive every day to be better, have better and do better! Its made life worth living! I love my family and dont know what I would be doing with out them and I dont want to know!!! LOVE YOU ALL MERRY CHRISTMAS IN A FEW DAYS can you believe it!!!!!!