ITS ALREADY CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas is one of my favorite holidays not because of gifts but just the spirit of Christmas! Its so fun to be with family and watch all the kids play and eat good food and treats and relax. It can get really crazy and busy but its so fun to just be with the ones you love!! Tonight was Christmas eve and we had Present time at Aarons Dads and step moms (where we live) so the entire fam comes over we eat honey baked ham and tons of food and sweets and we open all the presents! I like it this way so tomorrow Ava can open hers from santa and us and my parents this way each year we know christmas eve is with the Panters and Christmas is for My SIDE!! I love it and it was so much fun ava got blocks and a play cell phone and she is already like me she watches me very careful so she has wanted a cell phone for a while now. SO nanna and pappa decided to get her one she loves it and puts it up to her ear and talks baby talk SHE IS SO BIG! She got a rocking Horse from Tim and Krissy its so cute and jammies and a out fit and socks lots of fun stocking stuffers and We got food storage stuff this year for emergancy which is so cool and a huge thing of hot chocolate mix YUMMY and a package of like 5 different kinds of HOT SAUCES which Aaron loves and Aaron got a huge pic that was nicely framed with him and his dad its really nice. But tomorrow is a new day and I hope Ava has fun like she had tonight! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

CONGRATS MIKE AND AMANDA

Ok so this little love story hasnt even started yet! Well it has but they kinda havent but they are PERFECT for eachother. Mike and I have always been really close maybe because were pretty close in age and our best friends when we were younger were brother and sister and maybe because we hung out plenty as teens and young adults. But see we were always the little black sheeps of the family. Mike is no longer that way and it amazes me he has come so far with all that life has handed him he has never stopt reaching for his dreams. I have always known since forever all Mike wanted was to be financially successful and to find a PERFECT wife so he could marry her and raise the cutest family! Well he has so FOUND that PERFET WIFE!!! And they are getting married on Saturday! I am so glad to have a new sister in law those of you that know me I am the only girl so we have Rachel who is married to my older bro Taylor who i love and now we have AMANDA! Mike and Amanda met on line so really their relationship was phone and on line for a few months while we were down in Kansas City working Security Systems so really I have only met her a few times. But thats all I need to know that she is perfect for him. Plus I just read their blog that they have and its the cutest thing they have letters back and forth that they have written to one another that they posted and Please can I tell you they are both head over heals and are in this for the right reasons. Mike prob never gets on this but incase he does. I am proud of you Mike for always striving to be better and always coming out on top. You are someone I love and look up to. Though were all grown up and dont see too much of eachother you are still close to me in my HEART. I am so glad you have chosen Amanda to be your partner for ever. You guys diserve eachother and will make the cutest family when the time is ready!!! I am so excited for their weddings I love weddings I think they are so fun because its all about love and uniting as one!! Its a busy week with showers, christmas and weddings but it will be a great time!! I am so happy for both of them and I am happy to keep our family growing now that Rachel has Jaid and a little boy on the way, and I have Ava they need more cousins! NO RUSH... but i cant wait! Love you both and CONGRATS

STORY TIME

Ok... So marriage has been hard not in the I dont want to be married way but in the way that life trials has made it hard. Being newley married and being first time parents at the same time brings tons of stress though I would not change a thing I wish I would have been smarter as a young adult and teen and not been so stupidly stupid hah! Ava is my ROCK the reason I wake up obviously and the reason I say time for bed. Its all about our decisions in life that will make or break relationships and plain and simple your life! I know that Aaron and I had to grow up fast. Just because we were headed a direction by our actions never meant we were ready to take on the maturity and responsibilities to get married and raise a baby. Trust me we werent ready we were so oblivious to it all! We thought how hard could it be we love eachother so much and some day want to get married so lets do it all backwords! OH MY GOSH I could kill me now because love, parenting and marriage is not something you just think you can do you have to know it deep in your heart. You have to be smart you cant live like a high schooler and mooch off your parents but say its all gravy! I wish I had a smarter brain one that would have said let me go to collage and not worry so much about spending every minute consumed with Aaron and my friends and hanging out! But as I think about where I am and what and who I have become I can say with no regret that I have become such a better person because of my hard ships in life. I may have been stupid and gotten pregnant at 20 and not been married. I may have rushed into things too quickly I may have done my share of drugs and drinking but I can say I am happy I learned this way. Yes it would have been awesome to do things the right way to feel that FIRE when you want to marry the person you love. I just felt fat and stressed and worried. I never got to have my dream wedding though my wedding was perfect for that time in my life I wish I had more to remember. I look at my brothers and all I can say is they are such a insperation. Thats the way both Aaron and I wish we had it. Aaron is my LIFE. He is my Best friend and sometimes we do get into fits and fights but at the end of the day the mean words and un kind things we do we know that it wasn't real or worth holding onto. He is the best at giving me hope for our future the one that picks my negativity to positivity! He knows life is hard but he really has such an awesome view on things. I am so negative and he isnt so its a wonderful quality for my HUSBAND to have so he can pull me out of the slums! He makes me Laugh and Cry he makes me dream.... He is my everything and someone I only want to make things better and better with and so nothing can ever come in between us. HE is the best father! dirty bums, bath times, feedings and more he is totally up for it! I for one could sit back and let him do it all thats the worst quality I have see but thats also the beautiful thing about this is that it has made me so much more active and willing to be the "MOTHER" figure!!! I havent quite gotten to be the best house WIFE as in cooking and cleaning but thats only because we live with his parents but when we have our own place I do a great job. All I mean by this little post is to say I am happy my life is no fairy tale it actually can be the oposite but its a life that makes me strive every day to be better, have better and do better! Its made life worth living! I love my family and dont know what I would be doing with out them and I dont want to know!!! LOVE YOU ALL MERRY CHRISTMAS IN A FEW DAYS can you believe it!!!!!!

BUSY TIMES IN THE PANTER HOME

I have been so busy lately I haven't been too great at keeping up on this blog of ours.... But let me catch you up!!! Lets see... Aaron is working for a construction company called Becho but there is just random work its so stressful honestly, its like he will work 12 hour days for a week and a half and then have 4 days off its rediculous especially with christmas coming up and considering i would love to move out of my in laws its getting a little old living here.... I am so stressed, On the more positive note, AVA STARTED WALKING!!! OH my GOODNESS its a blast. She has literally turned into a little toddler in the last week just growing up right befor my eyes! I absolutely adore my Ava bavas she is my life lately.. I am still nursing with her 6 teeth and can i say its getting old, so I have been trying to cut down and soon be able to quit! I will miss it but not too much its a great time to think and bond and love her but its held me back from a lot and it would relieve a lot of stress if she would just take the dang bottle or sippy cup! And then on a downer note Ava sleeps like a cat she wakes up at least 4 times a night and will not stop crying unless i whip out the boob, its so annoying and I cry to aaron and my mom on a weekely basis what the hell am i doing i cant stand this any more!! She is so hard too with her solid foods yes at almost 10 months she hates the baby food if anything i have to get the toddler food that is more like stuff we would eat! and sometimes she wont eat anything. I am just so busy lately trying to get her used to food, sleep and living my life and trying to stay sain even though I am happy it still is stressful! I am loving being a mommy though more and more every day! I love her and Aaron and I would die with out them!

My mom doing her donuts YUM
ME as a COW GIRL

AVA and I all dressed up

eating her wrapped candy

the 2 of us

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

It was Ava's first Halloween so we went to my moms and she makes the best donuts to give out to all the trick or treaters. So we ate really good chicken taco soup and helped make donuts. Rach, jaid, my mom and aaron and Ava and I went trick or treating. Ava didnt know what was even going on but she kept grabbing the candy she was excited to try and eat the wrapper! She was a fairy princess and she was so darn adorable... I decided last minute to be a cowgirl but it was a fun night!!! WE had a FREAKIN blast!! BOO

Hey everyone sorry I have been so bad with not blogging lately! I have been so dang busy.... My life seems to be so boring lately but I really have been taking care of Ava and spending time with Aaron and a few friends. I hardly see my mom anymore either. Right now Aaron is joining the army so were busy getting everything ready. Aaron wants to go to medical school and do something along those lines in the army!!! I am not excited but we all know Aaron and think its probobly the best way for Aaron to do what he wants and have financial help because we could not do it with out that. But I will keep you all posted! LOVE YOU ALL

EAR INFECTION

We just found out yesterday that Ava has her first ear infection. She has been burning up for three days now, all she wants to do is be held, nursed or sleep. She does not want to sit, stand, play, or smile at all?? I feel so bad for her she is not feeling good at all. It makes me so sad hopefully her medicine will start kicking in soon so my little girl can be her old self again!!!

OUR 1 YEAR

Today is mine and Aaron's ONE YEAR anniversary!! I cant believe how fast this year came and went for us! I love him so much and find new things to love every day! I am so glad he is there for me every day and I am so lucky to have him he is so great to me and Ava! He is one hands on DAD and that helps me out so much! I cant wait to have another year with him and counting!!! Since we dont have a car as of right now we celebrated it last night, we had to take Ava because she has a ear infection but we ate sushi and rented a movie and then today we both thought the nicest present to get is a nice long love letter so we both wrote eachother a letter expressing our love for one another! I love those kinds of gifts there is nothing better! We really havent been able to celebrate it how we would have liked but it was still a great time! I LOVE AARON SO MUCH YOUR MY BEST FRIEND AND HUSBAND!!!!

SUNDAY FAIR DAY

ava had her first animal ride on a pony the lady wouldnt let me take a pic unless i paid 6 dollars so i snuck the best one i could sorry its not clear but i was not going to pay 6 dollars for that!

Breea and Dave!

ON THE CARPET SLIDE RIDE

MOOO SHE LOVED THE FAKE COW

ava in her seat on the way to the fair

US

AVA getting pulled in the tractor with her fake carrot!!

dad and ava are besties

it was a fun day today we went to the fair with breea, dave, kenz and emily and kaitlyn and aaron and ava and I!!! It was so HOT! We went on rides and ate expensive food and had a blast!! WE LOVE the FAIR... We cant wait to take her next year it will be a little more fun for her then!!!

KENNY G AND EMINEMS BIRTHDAY PARTYS

My nieces had their birthday parties yesterday and so did my nephew tanner! So yesterday we went from party to party and they were both swim parties and BBQs. Ava had a ball swimming and it was a very eventful tiring day by the end of the day I was ready for sleep!!!

uncle Mikey and Ava bavas

Uncle Mike and Ava! Out at the BBQ in Kansas City! He was picking her boogies, she had a bad cold!

FUN FUN

HOW CUTE ARE THESE? I LOVE AVA TO DEATH!

AVA LOVES GETTING INTO EVERYTHING,CHEWING ON ANYTHING AND PLAYING WITH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING SHE IS SO BIG

WE ARE BACK IN UTAH AND I AM SO GLAD THE SECURITY SALES IS OVER FOR US! IT WAS A LOT OF FUN AND A GREAT EXPERIENCE FOR US ALL. WE ARE CURRENTLY STAYING AT AARON'S DAD'S AND STEP MOM'S. WE ARE SO GRATEFUL BECAUSE WE WOULD BE HOMELESS! IT MEANS SO MUCH TO BE HELPED OUT SO MUCH BY OUR ENTIRE FAMILY! WE LOVE YOU ALL! THE LAST FEW WEEKS IN KANSAS CITY MY MOM AND BROTHERS AND DAD CAME OUT TO VISIT SO HERE ARE SOME PICS! SORRY IT HAS TAKEN SO LONG TO GET SOME NEW PICTURES UP AND OUT BUT AS YOU CAN TELL WE HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BUSY!